Puuray tum ho, Puurii mein hun

Aik tumhara mausam
Aik hai mera
Par aik hi din mein
Kitne badlein hai
Khushk, khali, barfani, jhulsaate
Hamaare, tumhaare
Yeh saare mausam

Aik lams jo garm talwaar pher deta hai
Aik lams jo dil tak sard kerdeta hai
Aik aankh jo rooh bhi kheench leti hai
Aik aankh jo itna tanha karti hai
Aik lams tumhara
Aik hai mera
Hammare, tumhaare
Yeh saare lams

Aik ehsaas, jo sab deta hai
Aik ehsaas, jo sab leta hai
Aik dhadkan, jo sun nahi paati
Aik dhadkan, jo keh nahi paati
Aik tumhaari
Aik hai meri
Yeh adhi, puri dhadkan


Hamaare tumhaare
Yeh saare mausam
Aik hi mausam
Yeh lams, yeh aankh
Yeh ehsaas,yeh dhadkan
Puuray tum ho
Puurii mein hun

My lost words

I’ve spun words before to kill the pain
But this time they’ve died instead
Suddenly, so swiftly, they have fallen alone
my broken syllables, my bleeding letters
And I can’t put them together though I try
The meanings stay lost, the sounds lay mute
Their images can be found no more
And the unshed tears can be cried no more
I can’t help them, I ride the same train
I lie in the same box, I’m covered by the same earth

An unwritten love letter for you

There is an unwritten love letter in my heart
That hides words I can’t say to you
Love I can’t share with you
Caresses that hide in unshed ink
Glances that lie in unformed words
The longing is held back
The yearning stays unseen
While the paper does wait
And the ink flows
But there is still an unwritten love letter in my heart
There is an unwritten love letter for you.

With my heart, or what's left of it

With my heart, or what’s left of it
Sitting next to each other
Holding hands
A companionable silence
Knowing glances
Sharing pale smiles
That we know and understand
Nothing more is needed
When we have each other
Nothing more is said
When we know and we remember

Let me sleep

Life’s going out slowly
Slowly out of my pores
I dissipate
And the heart wrings dry
Its falling, submerging
I disintegrate
The pieces are all gone
Gone far, too far out
So let me sleep
Sleep now, at last

Kahin tau hai woh taar

Har kahani hai khoii , har ehsaas hai thoda
Har saans hai utki, har lamha hai toota
Har aanch hai dheemi, har kasak hai dubki
Woh taar hai kahin
Kahin tau hai woh taar
Jo dhoonde, jo bandhae
Jo suljhae, jo behlae
Jo samete, jo sulgae

Jo tum ko laye

Kahin tau hai woh taar
Kahin tau hai woh taar

Just now

Just now the wind whispered what sounds like your name
Just now a perfume wafted, like one trailing off your skin
And just now a song echoed that lights up your face
And just now an image flashed like lights in your eyes
And just now a note drifted that rhymes with your voice
And just now a smooth remembrance caressed my skin
And just now a jagged yearning serrated and split inside
And just now a hollow ache, spliced, smothered and sighed

What do you make?

What do you make? They ask
I don’t make anything

but I try to unbreak things
Some little crushed wishes
Some little unknown hopes
Some little unfulfilled prayers
Some little nameless desires
Some little unseen dreams
And some little, tiny yearnings
I try to unbreak those
But then I find that I can’t
And my hands start to ache
My heart starts to bleed
My eyes get moist
My soul caves in
And then I can’t unbreak anything anymore

Ik arzoo

"Ik arzoo, ik dhoka, ik sarab hai yeh tau sab,
Wahi kinara, wahi kashti dhoontey doobay hain hum tau ab"

But pain

Longing turned into pain.
Dreams turned into pain.
Hope turned into pain.
Desire turned into pain.
Even love itself, turned into pain.
What else can you feel then
But pain

It’s the most hopeless love story in the world

It’s the most hopeless love story in the world
That starts with disbelief
Looks around in blindness
Breathes in denial
Walks in loneliness
Echoes with pain
Lives in silence
Craves without a wish
Remembers in heartbreak
Wilts in despair
Dies in vain
Crushed unknown
It’s the most hopeless love story in the world

Valentines.....

Bare trees, icy wind
Death like silence, solitary walkers
This is valentines……..

Happiness and love

Happiness doesn't seem to agree with me

It teasingly creeps in

ensnares tantalizingly

and treacherously squashes then

what little I’ve got left in my hands

Happiness really doesn't seem to agree with me

Love doesn't seem to agree with me

It tiptoes in beaming

tightens it's tentacles

and twists them choking then

what little I’ve got left in my heart

Love really doesn't seem to agree with me

Fool's paradise

Living in a fool's paradise

you move along with the flow

Playing charades with oneself

and those all around you

Like pawns in a chess game

feelings are toyed with, discarded

Choose what you want, how you want it

it's all yours for the taking

First get used to be duped

then you too learn the ropes

Learn to make your heart bleaker

and get your smile sunnier

It's all part of the game

there's no winning and no losing

Sometimes you win by losing

sometimes lose by winning.

Love...passed away

Its way too quiet inside my heart

why is it so wonders my mind

Is it the sign of impending doom

or the passing away of something divine?

The rites are over, the prayers all said

Now its time to bury

all the caring, all the love

It was sublime while it lasted

so beautiful, so rare

But an alien nevertheless

out of place, out of time

The funeral passes on, and life goes on

The dead get buried

the living get on with their life

Yet the heart stands still, unclothed, stripped bare

Bereft of all happiness, all loving, all hope

Another story gets told, another song gets sung

It was beautiful while it lasted

too precious to be forgotten

Falling apart?

Terrified, bewildered, so unsure

am I holding on to a broken straw?

With haunted eyes I view my heart

hiding inside like a frightened child

My feet don’t keep pace with myself

my mind just seems to fall apart

My throat feels gripped by fate's hands

an unsaid misery grips my soul

Oh what do I do, I just cannot think

is there no light for me at the road's end?

Just fickle

Fickle is happiness, fickle at heart

steals away the moment you turn your back

Just an illusion that loves to elude

surreptitiously it stabs you in the back

But look at sadness, a true blue friend

never deserts you, like everything else, in the end

Just like your shadow, it's always there

whatever you do, wherever you are

Is it love?

It breaks, cuts, tears you apart

or makes you feel like you're dancing on the stars

Wrenches, hurts, eats at your heart

or you feel drunk, light as a lark

Makes you so miserable you just want to die

or so ecstatic that you fly in the sky

Can make you plunge in deep dungeons of despair

or lift your spirits high in the air

What is it, heart's desire, do you know,

whatever it is that you do to my soul?

Searching....

Searching for that elusive spark

that would light up this dark life

Searching for that pot of gold

that got lost at the rainbow's end

Searching for that silver lining

that got separated from the cloud

Searching for that loving smile

that would show the power of love

Searching for that comforting squeeze

that would show the strength of being close

Searching for that comforting silence

that would show the need of being one

Searching for that ray of hope

that would show this is not the end.

Is this life?

Life's both heaven and hell

sometimes hard and dry, sometimes soft and sweet

It would crush you, throw you up and down

or hold you hard, close to the heart

It would push you around like a mighty power

or rage around like a storm in torment

It would meander along like a flowing river

or give out soft, sweet strains of music

Then suddenly it would break down, pent up in grief

looking around hopelessly for some relief

There's never a dull moment you can be sure of that,

it always has some trick up its sleeve

Just you wait and see, you wont be disappointed,

it loves to surprise you, make you shocked or amazed

Red rose

She's a deep red rose that burns in the night

when fire and fragrance lends spice to the ashes

Illusions and truth merge in a whole

images take shape and realities recede

Ends disappear and parallels embrace

senses get engulfed in an intoxicated haze

Time becomes endless as hope takes new forms

and desires become sharper and stronger than truth.

My autumn

Autumn is all around me and it envelopes the soul

holds my heart' n fills my being, with images dull and bold

Dry leaves caress the ground, swirl in the air

as they dance around my feet, create an atmosphere

The eyes reflect the tawny images around me

and make me feel as if autumn has set up home in me

Rust, olive, gold reflections dance in the air

autumn is here to stay, it has found its lair.

Image of the mind

Thoughts gallop across the mind

leaving images like footprints on sand behind

Sometimes swirling like full blooming crops

Sometimes descending like soft raindrops

Making imprints like a child works on his art

or dying out like a broken heart

Sometimes confusing already jagged nerves

Sometimes soothing like a soft smooth verse

Whatever they do they don’t leave you alone

Making you cry or smile when, you'll never know!

It left me, my smile

It left me, my smile, it left me alone

The one companion which by me had stood all along

through thick and thin like a part of my soul

it was always there, making me whole

It left me, my smile, it left me alone

Like a friend it had shielded my broken spirit

wiped my tears, healed my pain

Made me look happy outside

while I used to cry inside

It left me, my smile, it left me alone

In one hand it held my broken heart

in another it carried my hopes and dreams

The only thing that kept me sane

It left me, my smile, it left me alone

I had thought it would always be there

whatever happens it won't make me forlorn

But, it left me, my smile, it left me too.

Do Dreams Endure

Dreams float across the sky

bright as sun-shine soft as a smile

Their resilience brings a glow to my face

hope to my heart, shine to my eyes

erasing misgivings which hold my heart

make my breath stop within my being

Yet loneliness has forever pervaded my soul

would it let an alien feeling reside inside?

But hope refuses to back down

smiling impishly it holds its head up

Maybe, maybe it will endure

Lets see what the future holds for me