It was just a tear drop

Laughing, giggling, playing, teasing and it appears
And then falls and submerges in a placid pool
The blue waters, so serene, carry it away in such peace
Or it gets whisked off by harsh freezing winds. Where did it go?
Snowflakes blind me for a minute and its all but gone for ever.
I didnt hear it go, but do I even know its sound.
Or the harsh, dry sun, burns it off quickly on my face.
That was too soon, I barely even felt it.
Songs always see it fall quietly through the notes
seeping away hidden in crescendo, decrescendo.

Memories, yes what about them
They do make it appear
But its learnt how to go from them now too.
It wasnt easy to drag my lashes out of my heart
but one drop at a time is my rule, so no more
But what of the daily rites and the rituals
And my comings and goings and all the in between
How do I explain it between them all?
I barely notice where it goes then at times.
But I smile, And I smile, it was just a tear drop.

Na hua par na hua

Woh gallian theen, woh raahein thi apni
Gulon mein dhaki chatt, os se atti ghas
Na hua par na hua kuch apna, na sahi
Woh subhein aateen theen dheere
Motia ki mehek, girti padti kirnein
Na hua par na hua kuch apna, na sahi
Woh dupeherein, jo lambi ummer talak na katte
Saroo ki sargoshi, amrood ki chilti shaakh
Na hua par na hua kuch apna, na sahi
Woh shaamein, dhalta sooraj , kheera aankhein
Duur talak jaati parindoon ke uunchi dorein
Na hua par na hua kuch apna, na sahi
Woh raatein, kabhi tapish aatish ki, aur moongphali
Ya phir chaand aur sargoshi hawa ki
Na hua par na hua kuch apna, na sahi

Ahista Ahista

Mitt'ti ja rahi hai jaan tumhari, ahista ahista
Gard udd rahi hai, pair dhans rahe hain
Ruuh kheenchi bhi jachuki
Dhadhkan saakit bhi hochuki
Par kuch hai abhi baaki
Keh chalta hai waqt ahista
Keh azziatt ka kaam hain kheenchana
Keh dard ka maksad hai todna
Keh jab tak na nikle damm, ranj rehta hai
Keh jab tak na nikle jaan, soz badhta hai

Bohot hua tau aik lamha phir dejaana
Aik jhalak, aik lams, aik saaya sa dejaana
Safar hoga lamba, hai aag sa bhi ik darya
Woh jhalak saath chali tau bepayan na hoga
Woh lams thaam ke katwaiee gi mera safar
Woh saaya dhaanp ke rakhe ka har pal
Na karna der itni ke saakit ho jaye
Jaane bina phir jaan tumhari reh jaye
Na karna der itni ke bemarham reh jaye
Marhamgar si woh jaan tumhari yuunhi teher jaye

Dil ke konay mein

Dil ke konay mein kya baitha hai koi chupke se
Na hai laghzish, na hai jumbish, na hi saya hai koi
Khamoshi ka intizaar karti hai par aahat uski
Dabi dabi si leher, phailti jaati hai phir uski
Kabhi dhundlake mein rok leti hai kadam
Yaklakht saya sa jaise gher leta hai koi
Dagmagati hui jaan sambhalti hai phir mushkil se
Ruuh ki kheech jaati hai badi mushkilon se phir
Ladhkharahat kyun hai, kapkapi kyun hai, jaan jaati kyun hai
Na hai laghzish, na hai jumbish, na hi saya hai koi

Ab ka sawan

Aankhon ki baat duub gaye

Jahan sehraoon ka samandar tha

Ab keh aaya sawan hai

Kuch taana baana

Kuch lamhon ka taana baana

Kuch saath ka udharna bunana

Ik aahat, ik saaya, ik lams, ik muskurahat

Ik harf, ik baat, ik yaad, ik khwab

Sab shab samet legi, subah roshan kardegi

Not anymore

I don't need to write you a love letter anymore

Just read my face

The look in my eyes has enough emotion

The touch of my hand has enough words

The smile says it all

The kiss has it all

My scent is the same

You brought it's trail with you

My soul is the same

You had kept it with you

I don't need it from you too, you see

I just read your face

The look in your eyes is my own

The touch of your hand is my own

The pain says it all

The tone says it all

Your shadow is my own

I've carried it with mine

Your life is my own

I live it with mine

Phir bhi hosake tau aao

Bohot toote huon ko judne mein thoda waqt lagta hai

Nahi aasaan, hai yeh mushkil, behad kathin, bada dobhar

bohot bikhrey hote hain kaanch, bohot katati hain unglian

bohot se ched hote hain, jo bharte ummer lagti hai

kayee raste sametne hote hain, phir unmein khadde bhi hote hain

Kahin khaiee bhi aati hai, kahin pahadh milte hain

Phir sehra umad aate hain, jhulsaane, pighlaane walay

Phir darya bhi jalte hain paas, banjar, khaakh karne walay

Phir woh dil ka safar kayee manzilon ke paar chupa hua

Na raaste kabhi mil paye, na jhalak hi dikh paye

Aik ehsaas ki dor se juda, ho jiska sira madham madham

Aik khayal se atta, jo jamma ho dehka dehka

Phir bhi hosake tau aao, agar yeh sab seh pao

Hosake tau ao, agar chah tab talak jipaye

The oblivion wont come

Just one stray thought and I sink, struck down numb, cold, heavy, bedazed

While the night starts dying around me and the moon does so as well

The lights dim and the air gets heavy with a choking, heaving heart

The eyes that lost their wait, the hands that were denied the touch

The hair with its lost shadow and the voice that lays dead within

Yet today again somewhere you would be your ever luminous self

I see you holding court, I see you shining strong

The same wondrous eyes and the same deep laughter

Your words would be spreading magic, your warmth would be melting hearts

And that still is the essence, the source, the reason d'etre,

The start, the end, the before, the after and all that is between

The shadow, the reflection, the idea, the being

My pain, my rain, my joy, my rhyme.

Moments that surely will pass

In the midst
Of the mundane and the usual,
The laughter and the smiles
The getting together, the loneliness
The dull, the carnival
Come moments, moments that pass
Moments that wont linger for too long
They wont lay roots, hold a bond
For they are as fleeting as the cause
As transient as the source

But moments that hold
they hold and they hold
They creep in ever so quietly
take me by surprise
They always know, how to hold
And hold and hold and hold!
But pass they will
These are moments that surely will pass
But they always know, how to hold
And they hold and they hold

And give a searing pain
Pain which doesn’t seep in
But crashes and explodes
It cuts, its going through
Its blinding, its blinding right now
And it wont let you gasp
It wont allow you to move
You shake and you freeze
Its loud and deep, so deep
Dizzy moments, taking you down
Behind that door, behind the shadow
Hurtling, falling through, straight down
And down and down and down
It will pass, it surely must pass!

Numb, a tear escapes
Nothing else moves
Live through it, breathe through it
It will pass, it surely must pass!
Just hold on, hold on still
Faded pictures, dead hearts
distant tones, silent thoughts
It will pass, it surely must pass
The tear moves on
You see it now, you see it all

You start breathing, the colours come back
There are sounds around you again
Of the mundane and the usual
The laughter and the smiles
The getting together, the loneliness
The dull, the carnival
And the moment does pass
These moments will surely pass
For they are as fleeting as the cause
As transient as the source

I wish I could write

I wish I could write

Songs of joy

Cheer and Happiness

But words I have

only choose to tear

They serrate and shear

The pen can write no happy ditties

The brush can draw no flowers

All instruments are lying unstrung

All sema is staying in discord

And rainbows turn to ashes

And dewdrops into tears

The bird song is a banshee's call

The welcoming song a requiem

Note to self

Dont judge me for my words

Dont measure the thoughts

Dont count the feelings

Dont weigh the moods

Dont look for a smile

Dont dig for light

Dont hunt the sadness

Dont reject the pain

For else I may explode

Which night do I speak of my love

Which night do I speak of my love

The night filled with first moments

Stifled sobs, crushed wishes

Of blooms and ancient memories

Which night do I speak of my love

The night seeped in wine

Rose coloured, wide eyed

Of tender touches and drunken intimacies

Which night do I speak of my love

The night cursed with silences

Choked thoughts, dazed smiles

Of unsaid conversations and hung sighs

Which night do I speak of my love

The night stained with tearful sleeplessness,

Dreamless, hopeless,

Of empty hearts and emptier gazes

Which night do I speak of my love

The night of me and you

From beyond and before

Of all nights between you and me.

Which night do I speak of my love?

Ik Lamha

Ik Lamha


Zakhm ubal ubal padte hain

Aansoo umad umad aatey hain

Ik lamha jaag jae tau

Hazar lamhe toot jaate hain

Dhadkan rokte rokte

Chingaari ji jaati hai

Phir bhadakti hai tau

Meri raakh jhulas jaati hai

Nabz thumi thumi si hai

Ruuh bhi tooti tooti hai

Ab jo raah dhoondti hoon tau

Raaste hi bhatak se jaatein hain

Hansi aajati hai

Hansi aajati hai


Hansi aajati hai, rona nahi aata
Yaqeen aajata hai, beyaqeeni nahi jaati
Koi aa jata hai, par koi nahi jaata
Waqt ruk jaata hai, wapis nahi aata
Sab judd jaata hai, kuch juddta hi nahi
Koi maan jaata hai, koi tau hai hi nahi

Woh...

Woh...


Woh jis ke shaane pe sar rakh ke ghanton rona aata tha

Jo bojhal dil, pathar aankhein, sard saansein jee uthata tha

Woh jis ke haath tedha collar sidha kartey thay

Geele baal sukhaatey, unhein sanwartay thay

Phir un mein unglian pher ke sulatay thay

Who jo raaton ko daraune sapnon ko bhagata tha

Rone ke peeche kya tha sabab jaanta tha

Phool barsaata, saath chalta, haath thamta tha

Maathe pe bosa karta, ruuh mein bahar laata tha

Aise muskarata ke sab kuch bhula hi jaata tha

Jeena kya hai marte marte sikha jaata tha

Kho gaya, khatam hua, doob gaya, khak hua

Aadat

Aadat

Ab tau aadat si hai
Bejaan raaton, dhalti subhoon
Pheeki dupehron, murti shamoon ki

Ab tau aadat si hai
Suuni baahon, khali aankhon
rauti dhadkanon, rukti saanson ki,

Ab tau aadat si hai
Jhoote lafzon, toote waadon
Aadhi manzilon, jaate kadmon ki

Ab tau aadat si hai
Jalte rehne ki, hanste rehne ki,
Chalte rehne ki, jaane dene ki

Where the sea is still......

Where the sea is still

The waters may run deep

For the pain lies deeper still

And more so the hurt

Deeper may lie the loss itself

And the memories further so

Layer upon layer

Deeper than time may go




Where the sea is still

The waters may run deep

For precious is what it hides

And more so the unseen

Deeper may lie the bond

And the love further so

Layer upon layer

Deeper than time may go